Someday

When I first step foot in UP High, I knew that I could learn many things in here. But what I do not know before is that I would also learn how to love and be hurt in this four walls of UP High.

Yes, I experienced to love and being loved. When I was in first year, I already met my first love. I still remember when I first knew that I was falling in love with him. It is because he was my partner in Computer,and he always teased me. Actually, i really hate him at that time, but when I knew my feelings for him, everytime I saw him was like a heaven for me. It was hard to ba trapped with his killer smile because I then realized that he was in love to another girl, and not me. I really cried that time because it was very painful.

When I was in my sophomore, we were classmates. I still like him. But there was another guy who told me that he liked me. Actually, I liked him, but as a friend only. One day, we had an open forum, and we expressed our feelings. I told my first love that i liked him, and i rejected my other friend. But my first love liked another girl, and this girl also like my other friend. After that, my friend and I ended our communication and did not even talk for a long time. Then I realized that I was falling in love with him! It was really hard because he and that girl were in a relationship. But i still managed myself not to cry for him.

In my third year of living in UP High, my friends told my that the other friend of mine liked me. I also began liking him because i had a crush on him when we were still in second year. But my second love told me that he would court me. I knew that I had my feelings for him so we entered in a relationship. But we broke up, and it hurts.In my fourth year life, we get together but we could not make thigs work so again, we broke up. But this friend of mine always cheered me up. Later on, I realized that maybe I wasw falling in love with him. But again, he loved another girl and it was painful. Until now, I still like him and I still care for him. But I could not expressed my feeling because I feared of rejection. Everytime I see them happy, I could not stop my emotions that i have to go to another place where I could not see them. Until now, this pain hurts. But I have to accept the fact because I know that in her side, he will be happy.

I hope that someday, I could get over and move on. I hope that time would heal this pain. I want to forget my feelings for him. I want the time to heal the pain inside. Someday.